- My husband- who asks me why I updated my status on Facebook
- My family-which would make for amazingly entertaining and unbelievable stories but the fallback would be too great
- My friends - who may actually be bored one day and read the blog
- My actual thoughts - One of the primary reasons I fear getting drunk
I have tried to determine the root of my honesty and I know some of it is learned from my father. There was also a very distinct day that I can pinpoint in high school that triggered a change in me. I was sitting in the cafeteria during a break period eavesdropping on the a group of the popular girls sitting near me. Eight of them in total, all looking perfectly groomed in their Abercrombie and Fitch corduroy skirts, white blouses, sweater vests, and platform shoes (I went to a prep school in Lake Forest). After 15 minutes of them all gossipping and having a grand old time, 2 had to head back to class. The 6 remaining girls ripped the 2 to pieces the second they were beyond earshot. I empathised with these 2 girls who walked away and knew nothing about what their "friends" were saying about them. I was determined from that moment on that if didn't particularly like someone, I would not pretend otherwise. Retrospect tells me what a bad decision that was! I also decided that I would always treat someone they way I wanted to be treated. Which sounds good, but has some unintended consequences.
Being honest to a fault isn't my only personality flaw. Since you are getting to know me, I might as well put some of them out on the table. The first on the list being one of those unintended consequences.
- Too high expectations - I expect people to treat me the way I treat them which is unlikely
- Serious - I have a hard time just cutting loose and having fun
- Jealous/Needy - I am not good at sharing things, people, or ideas
- Refusal to let dead dogs lie - I feel compelled to discuss things even if I knew bringing it up can potentially make the situation worse and don't feel right again until my perspective is heard
- Too controlling- I have a need to have control on all aspects of my life.
- Have many pet peeves - like someone making you wait
- Too sensitive - I am hurt pretty easily
I am not all bad though. There are a number of things that I have to be proud of, which will be the future content of this blog.
- 2 beautiful, smart, well mannered little girls
- A 80% of the time wonderful marriage
- A successful career as an Project Manager and Business Analyst
- Being someone that people can depend on to get things done and be there when you need me
- Always following through
- Putting my family first
- A beautiful home and an eye for design
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